Wednesday, January 17, 2007

I love Angela Stone!!!

OK, well, my last post sounded kind of mean and Im sorry if I offended anyone!!! I didn't mean to!!! and this post is for Angela!!!

Today was Seths first official day of Preschool!! It was so fun to see him walk in there with his new outfit and cute little back pack!! and guess what? did I have any film to take a picture!! of course not!! I am such a prepared mom!! not!!! I really hope he does good..because when we went in for the "trial" day, he got in fight with another little boy!! it was soooo sad!! i almost cried! This just goes to prove my piont about how he has been acting..or how I've been acting toward him, which is making him act that way!! Its hard to tell him..don't hit anyone..but if they hit you its ok to defend yourself!! ya right!! like he knows what that means!!! So we had a nice long talk today and hopefully there wont be anymore incidences!!!

So its just me and Eden at home today..kind of quiet! And my house is calling..but I am ignoring it! Although, nathan and I had a big long grown up disscussion about my house work abilities..he seems to be a little frustrated with me! So what if i haven't put my laundry all the way "away" for like a month..at least its clean right?!! =-)
No, I see what he's saying. I do need to work harder..we just bought a house..we want it to be nice! so..I better go and see all the things I need to do to make it that way, and maybe actually DO them!! =-)

Monday, January 15, 2007

Im a bad mom!!!! Actually..just a continually learning one!!

So two bloggs in one day!! Can't say I don't update enough now!! Actually I just posted this same blog on my My Space page... so I thought I would post it here as well! So here it is!!
Our house is still amazing! Though somewhat of a heat sucker! It always seems cold, and we just got our first real gas bill..and let me tell you , I almost had a heart attack!! I couldn't believe it, it was soooo much! So we have decided to just wear more sweaters and pile on the blankets cuz we gotsta turn that heater down!!!! I think the surrealness of home ownership is out the door and reality is settling in, darn!!
My baby girl is going to be one on the 31st and I cannot believe how FAST time has gone. With my son it seemed like it took forever for him to reach this age..but not with her! I just want it to slow down ya know? pretty soon she'll be walking and talking and hating me!! ha ha! maybe not hating me, but the walking and talking part still makes me sad! and happy all at the same time! I'll tell you what, being a mom sure is a jumble of emotions, strong ones too! I really don't know how we do it!! To all you other moms out there reading this...I commend you!! And all those non-moms...just you wait!! =-)

On a more personal note...I have been wondering lately why my son has been so, well, bratty! I know thats a terrible thing to say, but there is really no other word to best describe it. He yells and talks back and does whatever the heck he wants to with no regard for anything Nathan or I say to him. Well, maybe its not that bad...its not all the time, but a lot! I have been contemplating why the sudden change in his behavior. I mean, he is usually a very sweet, obedediant kid, as much as a three year old can be anyway! I have come up with many theories....one, we have moved four times in the last year! Thats hard on a little guy, especially when he had just made some new friends! Two, he just moved from the nursery ( in our church its for the babies 18 months to 3 years old, they basically jusy get to play with toys and have fun!) to sunbeams. No more running around and playing, now he has to sit still and listen to the teacher. I think this has been very hard for him to get used to! In fact he was put in time out in his class this last week because he wouldn't sit still and stop running around!!! Three, ( and this one is the suckiest one of all!!) I was thinking about how I treated him. I mean, how do I handle stressfull situations with him and my daughter? much to my chagrine I realized I do exactly what he does....I yell, talk mean, freak out..ya basically Im a brat! no wonder my child is acting this way..he learned it from me!! I have no excuses..I can't say, well I'm tired or stressed or basically incompetent to be a mother. There is no excuse for the way I handle things. How old am I? Who is the parent? I know how I felt every time we moved, or had to do something that was uncomfortable and new...and my mother hardly, if ever..raised her voice to us..and I can count on one hand...not even needing all the fingers..how many times she spanked me!
So after all of this thinking and realization I have decided to freakin lighten up and go easy on the poor kid! Like I said he is three! I cant expect so much from him that its absolutely rediculous! And I need to find better ways to communicate with and discipline him! I tried sooooo hard today to talk softly and kindly, and to not yell or get angry. I think it was the hardest and most stressfull day to date!! But I feel so much better about the whole thing!! My son was in a way better mood, and although we still had a few rough moments..all in all it was also the best day we've had in a while! Nathan even commented on how better my son was acting..so that means we definitely did something right!!
Ok, so I know this went on forever!!! I really didn't mean for it to! I just needed to vent!! I appreciate all the comments I get on these bloggs you guys!! Its nice to know you have people out there who care about you! I love you guys!!!

I'm not very good at this!

So, according to some people, I do not update my blog frequently enough! Well, all I have to say is " does it not feel like you are basically having a one sided conversation with yourself?! " Not when Im told I dont blog enough, but when I actually do the blogging. I mean, what if no one is really reading this and I am just talking to myself? That would be really sad and pathetic!! So, I haven't really posted in fear of being a total geek!!
Actually, the reality is I just haven't been interested in doing it! And, I haven't had the time.

Fist of all, my whole family got that stomach flu that has been going around! Nathan, then Seth and then me, and I think Eden got it too! She puked all over me in the middle of Charolettes Web..in the theater.. yes it was sick! Though, I actually had it twice!! Stomach pain so bad you can hardly stand it! puking up anything, everything and nothing at the same time!! and other things I won't mention..but are just as gross!! We just barely got over it!!

Second, my family was just in town and so I was entertaining them!! Seven people in one house is a lot!! And as soon as they got home..they were sick too! Right after they left is when I got it the second time! Thanks a lot guys!! =-)

Third, Nathan went out of town this weekend and I was home alone with the two spawns of sa.....I mean the two beautiful, loving sweet babies of mine!! =-) J/k!! They did great! I on the other hand seem to have difficulty dealing with two kids and the stress by myself, with no one to give me a break!! I really don't know how single parents do it!!

So, needless to say, my little family blog has been sent down the list of priorities to close to the bottom!! But today I have a little time...(while my children run, scream, jump and cry all around me) to update every one who I KNOW reads this!! I hope you are happy!! =-) Love you guys!

Friday, January 5, 2007

Its a new year, and resolutions suck!

I was just thinking about it already being 2007. I can't believe it!! I remember in elementary school being excited to write 1994 on the tops of all my papers and trying so hard to remember that it wasn't 1993 any more!! weird!
Anyway, resolutions...Im not so sure about these things! Who thought of spending the fisrt day of the new year deciding to make a goal that you are supposed to stick to for the whole next year..or for the rest of your life!!? Whoever did, was a retard! Not to say that I can't stick to the goals I make, because I can! I stick to it when I decide to finish off the last of the Ice Cream, or make sure the chocolate cake gets eaten and none goes to waste!! Those are pretty important ones too, let me tell ya!
Ok, who am I kidding!! Those arent really goals..just fat inducers. When it comes to real life changing...um..changes, I am no good! I try, sure, but then it gets hard, yada yada..and boom! I fall off the wagon!
So needless to say, this year Im not really making any resolutions...I might sound like a big pansy..but who cares!!
I do want to loose weight, who doesn't? So, I'll be working on that (and a few other things to) But if you ask me, "Ashleigh, what is your news years resolution?" I will either give you a dirty look and the silent treatment....or tell you that this year my resolution was to give every single person who asks me that question a nice big wedgie!!! Your choice!!
Ha Ha!

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

I know Christmas is over but..

I just wanted to show you what Christmas looks like around our place....