I love Angela Stone!!!

OK, well, my last post sounded kind of mean and Im sorry if I offended anyone!!! I didn't mean to!!! and this post is for Angela!!!

Today was Seths first official day of Preschool!! It was so fun to see him walk in there with his new outfit and cute little back pack!! and guess what? did I have any film to take a picture!! of course not!! I am such a prepared mom!! not!!! I really hope he does good..because when we went in for the "trial" day, he got in fight with another little boy!! it was soooo sad!! i almost cried! This just goes to prove my piont about how he has been acting..or how I've been acting toward him, which is making him act that way!! Its hard to tell him..don't hit anyone..but if they hit you its ok to defend yourself!! ya right!! like he knows what that means!!! So we had a nice long talk today and hopefully there wont be anymore incidences!!!

So its just me and Eden at home today..kind of quiet! And my house is calling..but I am ignoring it! Although, nathan and I had a big long grown up disscussion about my house work abilities..he seems to be a little frustrated with me! So what if i haven't put my laundry all the way "away" for like a month..at least its clean right?!! =-)
No, I see what he's saying. I do need to work harder..we just bought a house..we want it to be nice! so..I better go and see all the things I need to do to make it that way, and maybe actually DO them!! =-)

Im a bad mom!!!! Actually..just a continually learning one!!

So two bloggs in one day!! Can't say I don't update enough now!! Actually I just posted this same blog on my My Space page... so I thought I would post it here as well! So here it is!!
Our house is still amazing! Though somewhat of a heat sucker! It always seems cold, and we just got our first real gas bill..and let me tell you , I almost had a heart attack!! I couldn't believe it, it was soooo much! So we have decided to just wear more sweaters and pile on the blankets cuz we gotsta turn that heater down!!!! I think the surrealness of home ownership is out the door and reality is settling in, darn!!
My baby girl is going to be one on the 31st and I cannot believe how FAST time has gone. With my son it seemed like it took forever for him to reach this age..but not with her! I just want it to slow down ya know? pretty soon she'll be walking and talking and hating me!! ha ha! maybe not hating me, but the walking and talking part still makes me sad! and happy all at the same time! I'll tell you what, being a mom sure is a jumble of emotions, strong ones too! I really don't know how we do it!! To all you other moms out there reading this...I commend you!! And all those non-moms...just you wait!! =-)

On a more personal note...I have been wondering lately why my son has been so, well, bratty! I know thats a terrible thing to say, but there is really no other word to best describe it. He yells and talks back and does whatever the heck he wants to with no regard for anything Nathan or I say to him. Well, maybe its not that bad...its not all the time, but a lot! I have been contemplating why the sudden change in his behavior. I mean, he is usually a very sweet, obedediant kid, as much as a three year old can be anyway! I have come up with many theories....one, we have moved four times in the last year! Thats hard on a little guy, especially when he had just made some new friends! Two, he just moved from the nursery ( in our church its for the babies 18 months to 3 years old, they basically jusy get to play with toys and have fun!) to sunbeams. No more running around and playing, now he has to sit still and listen to the teacher. I think this has been very hard for him to get used to! In fact he was put in time out in his class this last week because he wouldn't sit still and stop running around!!! Three, ( and this one is the suckiest one of all!!) I was thinking about how I treated him. I mean, how do I handle stressfull situations with him and my daughter? much to my chagrine I realized I do exactly what he does....I yell, talk mean, freak out..ya basically Im a brat! no wonder my child is acting this way..he learned it from me!! I have no excuses..I can't say, well I'm tired or stressed or basically incompetent to be a mother. There is no excuse for the way I handle things. How old am I? Who is the parent? I know how I felt every time we moved, or had to do something that was uncomfortable and new...and my mother hardly, if ever..raised her voice to us..and I can count on one hand...not even needing all the fingers..how many times she spanked me!
So after all of this thinking and realization I have decided to freakin lighten up and go easy on the poor kid! Like I said he is three! I cant expect so much from him that its absolutely rediculous! And I need to find better ways to communicate with and discipline him! I tried sooooo hard today to talk softly and kindly, and to not yell or get angry. I think it was the hardest and most stressfull day to date!! But I feel so much better about the whole thing!! My son was in a way better mood, and although we still had a few rough moments..all in all it was also the best day we've had in a while! Nathan even commented on how better my son was acting..so that means we definitely did something right!!
Ok, so I know this went on forever!!! I really didn't mean for it to! I just needed to vent!! I appreciate all the comments I get on these bloggs you guys!! Its nice to know you have people out there who care about you! I love you guys!!!

I'm not very good at this!

So, according to some people, I do not update my blog frequently enough! Well, all I have to say is " does it not feel like you are basically having a one sided conversation with yourself?! " Not when Im told I dont blog enough, but when I actually do the blogging. I mean, what if no one is really reading this and I am just talking to myself? That would be really sad and pathetic!! So, I haven't really posted in fear of being a total geek!!
Actually, the reality is I just haven't been interested in doing it! And, I haven't had the time.

Fist of all, my whole family got that stomach flu that has been going around! Nathan, then Seth and then me, and I think Eden got it too! She puked all over me in the middle of Charolettes Web..in the theater.. yes it was sick! Though, I actually had it twice!! Stomach pain so bad you can hardly stand it! puking up anything, everything and nothing at the same time!! and other things I won't mention..but are just as gross!! We just barely got over it!!

Second, my family was just in town and so I was entertaining them!! Seven people in one house is a lot!! And as soon as they got home..they were sick too! Right after they left is when I got it the second time! Thanks a lot guys!! =-)

Third, Nathan went out of town this weekend and I was home alone with the two spawns of sa.....I mean the two beautiful, loving sweet babies of mine!! =-) J/k!! They did great! I on the other hand seem to have difficulty dealing with two kids and the stress by myself, with no one to give me a break!! I really don't know how single parents do it!!

So, needless to say, my little family blog has been sent down the list of priorities to close to the bottom!! But today I have a little time...(while my children run, scream, jump and cry all around me) to update every one who I KNOW reads this!! I hope you are happy!! =-) Love you guys!

Its a new year, and resolutions suck!

I was just thinking about it already being 2007. I can't believe it!! I remember in elementary school being excited to write 1994 on the tops of all my papers and trying so hard to remember that it wasn't 1993 any more!! weird!
Anyway, resolutions...Im not so sure about these things! Who thought of spending the fisrt day of the new year deciding to make a goal that you are supposed to stick to for the whole next year..or for the rest of your life!!? Whoever did, was a retard! Not to say that I can't stick to the goals I make, because I can! I stick to it when I decide to finish off the last of the Ice Cream, or make sure the chocolate cake gets eaten and none goes to waste!! Those are pretty important ones too, let me tell ya!
Ok, who am I kidding!! Those arent really goals..just fat inducers. When it comes to real life changing...um..changes, I am no good! I try, sure, but then it gets hard, yada yada..and boom! I fall off the wagon!
So needless to say, this year Im not really making any resolutions...I might sound like a big pansy..but who cares!!
I do want to loose weight, who doesn't? So, I'll be working on that (and a few other things to) But if you ask me, "Ashleigh, what is your news years resolution?" I will either give you a dirty look and the silent treatment....or tell you that this year my resolution was to give every single person who asks me that question a nice big wedgie!!! Your choice!!
Ha Ha!

I know Christmas is over but..

I just wanted to show you what Christmas looks like around our place....

Christmas Suprises

well, since I have spent the last nine posts rambling about nothing (ok, so I freaked out about my video...) I decided I should now talk about my family...since thats what I started this whole thing for anyway!!

So this year for Christmas Nathan and I decided that we would just get stocking stuffers for each other and no gifts, since our house was our gift. I spent forever trying to get little things that he might like, books (which I ordered online and didn't get here until..yesterday!!) some hunting things..socks of course, a Jeff Foxyworthy video about hunting, and my most precious video I made him and stuck onto a cd. I thought I was doing pretty good, since we didn't have much money and really..what can you get thats cool that fits in a stocking? Not much. I probably took the whole month of December trying to figure out what to get him. And when Christmas day came he actually seemed to like most of it..which is a big deal. If any of you know my husband..hes a little picky about things..to say the least!! So, when the time came for me to look in my stocking..I found one pair of socks and the movie While You Were Sleeping (which I love by the way!) but I thought to myself.."thats it?"(terrible huh?!!) I knew he hadn't gone shopping for me until the night before Christmas eve and I was a little bit dissapointed..which I really shouldn't have been since I was sitting on the floor of a beautiful new house..but still...

So then there was this really big present that I thought I had wrapped that was for Nates parents (who spent Christmas with us) from one of their daughters and I kept trying to get Nates Sister to give it to them but Nate wouldn't let her!! I was getting a little upset because I swore it was theirs!! Turns out..It wasn't. It was a present for me from Nate. It was the coveted scanner that I had been wanting forever!!! I couldn't believe it! And do you think I felt bad for being dissapointed earlier? And do you think I felt like I didn't do enough for him? You bet! He always does this!! We talk about not doing something, and then he goes and does it anyway!! So here are the cute pictures of the kids that I have that I couldn't send anyone..because I didn't have a scanner to scan them in and email them!! I love that boy..he always goes above and beyond for his wifey-poo!!

Last post I swear!! Is anyone even reading this?

Ok, so I just wanted to point out that the other video on Jesh and Brookes blog labeled, "is forever enough" is another video I made for my parents. It features Seth, Eden and my nephew Christian!! Its pretty cute if you want to check it out!!

I take it back

So, I emailed my video to my self at a different address..one that isn't a very big account..and it worked just fine!! I take back everything I said about a BIGGER email account!! However..it does play on media player and you can make it big screen..which is nice..but its still a little blurry and the transitions arent very smooth. It must have just been the way it saved to media player or something..I don't know! So if you want me to email it to you so you can see it on the full screen just let me know!! Its a little nicer that way.

Yea!! My video!! And the best brother ever!!

So, I have this incredibly awesome( but unfortunatly also incredibly long) video that I made for Nathan for Christmas..but the program used to make it is sooooo stupid!! dumb windows movie maker...no ones computer has it..and you can't email it in the windows movie maker format..because its just stupid..so I have it saved in windows media player...which should play on most peoples computers...however..then the issue of its lenth comes into play. Hardly anyone has enough space in their email boxes to play it!! Come on people!! If you all got a gmail account..wich is free by the way..and can hold like 1 gig of memory..or whatever( I am soooo NOT computer lingo savy!!)I could email this video to all of you and we would have solved this delema forever ago!! But since you don't, My wonderful brother has so kindly re-formatted it and hosted it on his own blog page!!! Its pretty dang cool! Though, the original is a little smoother in the transitions, and a little clearer picture..and you can make it full screen (for those of you with bad eye sight..) all in all its really great on Jesh's page. So if you want to check it out click the jesh and brooke's blog link on my blog, and it will take you to their family blog page. (blog, blog, blog....) click the "featured video" option in the right hand corner and then click Nathan Christmas!! And it requires QuickTime..so if you don't have it...man you guys are sooo behind the times...you can install it pretty easy!! Also, don't start it unless you have at least 15 mintues to contribute to watching it!! (I told you it was a long video!!) So this post is getting pretty long, but I just wanted to say thanks to Jesh for all the work he has done on this for me..He had to do a lot with helping me actually make the video first!! And then all hes done after!! I love you! And if any of you decide to actually get a BIGGER email account, let me know and I will email this over to you!!

Aha!!

I fixed it..see im not retarded!!!...just a little slower than most....

dumb

These posts...well, maybe its just me being computer illiterate..but, my text in my posts is supposed to wrap around the picture on the left side...which is why the picture is more to the right instead of in the middle...but for some reason its not!! In the preview it works but not on the actual page!! grrrrr..I must just be retarded....

I do have two kids!!

Well, since I have a picture of Eden I might as well put a picture of Seth!! I can't believe how big he is getting!! Three years old, going on twenty..with plenty of attitude! Man, whatever happen to the good old days of not knowing how to talk and only knowing how to love your mommy? Though he does love me and he tells me all the time..along with, " mommy your cute and pretty!!" But, that line usually only follows after my stern " don't you do that again" look I give him when he says or does something he shouldn't have...he then tries to butter me up. What a smarty...or is it what a smooth talker!? Either way, that's Seth for you!

What? No Video?

Ok, so is there no such thing as posting video on this blog? Or am I just missing it?

Ok, So i am just checking things out...seeing how it all works..I am going to add a picture to my blog post this time...lets see if I get it right....

ahhahh!!! I did it!! I am so proud!! So Here is me and my baby girl at thanksgiving!!! Her hair was way crazy!! It used to stick straight up!! But now its getting longer and starting to lay flat!!

I did it for angela!

ok, so I do have a my space page...but my space is sort of for single people lookin for a little somethin somethin if you know what I mean...so I figured this was a little more grown up and sophisticated..since that is exactly what I am! Anyway, now I can put more pictures and hopefully do more fun stuff!!! This is for you angela!! ha ha!!